some advice

Watching the drummers on Pearl Street with daddy!
Picking out all the green toys at the toy store.
Wearing her tutu for her friend's birthday party.
Helping me make Chocolate chip cookies
Hanging out at Grams and PopPops' while I was at the dentist.
Digging for toys.
Being cute!
A nice seat!

Hello and welcome to the new private blog. I have invited some people that I know have never read, but I invited all the new moms in my life in hopes that I can occasionally get some advice from you and we can create a little network of support.

So, to any of you (moms or not) who have a free moment and have any thoughts on the following- I'd love your advice.

1. Coranelle is going through a stage where sharing seems to be impossible- especially her own toys in her own home. It is very frustrating and I just am not sure how to deal with it. This morning, she had a little friend over and everything her friend touched or tried to play with, Coranelle grabbed from her and said "Coranelle's". I tried to coax her into other activities and toys, but she kept taking toys from her and then hoarding them in a little pile near where she was sitting. She would get aggressive and pushy if her friend took things from her. I felt like I said, "Give Anna a turn" about a thousand times. We have talked about sharing, playing together and have even been reading books about sharing. What else do I do? I have done time-outs when she takes toys and made her play by herself in her room. What other techniques are there out there? I know most kids do this around this age, but I'd love to know if there is a better way to handle it. My patience gets worn thin. Can I blame it on pregnancy?

2. Breast pumps- I was talking to a few moms at Mops yesterday about weaning their kids from nursing. They all talked about some pretty intense pain when they stopped nursing. Even though Coranelle stopped nursing-cold turkey... I never really hurt. A little, but not much. So, it makes me realize I didn't have much milk. So, second go-around, I'd like to monitor that better. I just had a hand pump with Coranelle and didn't really feel the need for much more as I wasn't going back to work. I am still not going back to work, but it is one of our priorities that Sheldon will take a bottle. That means, I'll need to do some pumping. Not tons, just once a day or so. So,I'd like to purchase one. We've had offers to reuse other people's, but Ryan is dead set against it, and I respect that. So, we looking to buy one. I am not sure if I need a single, or double. But, I want an electric. I don't know which brand is best, but we're looking to spend less than $100. Thoughts? Advice on when to pump? How often?

3. Double stroller- I don't think we will use this too often, as Coranelle's patience for a stroller is never more than about 15 minutes (if we're lucky). But, it seems like it would be good to have for trips to the park or zoo or in and out of places in the winter. We don't need anything fancy. I'd rather have front to back than side to side. We're hoping to spend less than $150. Any recommendations or words of caution? I am clueless.

4. Related to pregnancy- Baby Sheldon's head seems to rest right about my sciatic nerve. I have mentioned this before. Last night, after swimming some laps, I was taking a shower and Sheldon shoved his head into my nerve. I literally collapsed onto the tile floor because my leg gave out. What do I do about this? All my doctor suggested was doing some cat/cow yoga positions. Don't you think that it would be so much better if full-term was 35 weeks rather than 40? Being this uncomfortable seems unnecessary. Any other suggestions?

Thanks for the feedback.

Here's my little praise for my peanut this week. We went to her friend's 2nd birthday party this past weekend and he received a green strider bike from his grandparents. Coranelle saw it and was SO excited about it! She even attempted to ride it in the midst of the party chaos and did wonderfully. She is really looking forward to getting her "OWN" from baby Sheldon. Ryan already has it and put it together for her and I wonder if he'll be able to wait until the baby arrives to give it to her. She's going to have so much fun. Every day we hear - "GREEEEN bike, baby Sheldon. Green helmet (as she pats her head). Mommy- Daddy help-A-you.". Pretty cute!

preparing for Sheldon

Racing her cars- excited to have Sheldon race with her someday.
A few pictures of Sheldon's room in progress.

Before I start this post- please let me know if you’d like to continue reading my blog. I am working on making it private, so e-mail me at karialyssam@gmail.com if you’d like to continue reading. For a full, lengthy explanation of why, read the last post!

I am now 31 ½ weeks along! How did that happen? Are we really going to have a son in 8 weeks or less? We are getting really excited. I am personally starting to feel really tired of being pregnant. You know when it even hurts to sleep? Yup, I am there. The achy hips, the really sore back, a very tight belly, and a sometimes ruthless little kicking boy inside. Sheldon feels bigger than Coranelle was, as if he is taking up more space inside me- if that is possible. When he moves around he scrapes my insides and now has been pinching some nerves in my legs and back. But, I know now that this is the easy part and he is still in there, being fed, clothed, changed, and cared for- so to speak. The really hard part is when he arrives!

Fortunately, Ryan has been awesome and faithful to giving me a backrub every day. My horseshoe pillow handed down from a friend has made sleep possible (which is amazing) and I have a massage scheduled for next weekend! And, I really don’t have the rights to complain as I have had healthy weight gain, good blood pressure and urine samples, and no real complications to speak of. So, praise God for that!

Coranelle is getting very excited for baby Sheldon to arrive. She has not yet mastered her “s”, so when she talks about Sheldon, it sounds more like “Law-don”. The other night, I was giving her a bath and asked her if she would like to share a bath with Sheldon when he gets older. She got really excited and started patting the water next to her, saying “Lawdon sit. Coranelle help. Coranelle rinse, Coranelle wash. Soap”. I told her that she would be very helpful, as long as she was gentle. She suddenly got impatient, got onto her knees, peered at my belly and started yelling “Lawdon out. Lawdon out now. Bath”. Many times in the past few days, she’ll look at my belly and say, “Lawdon OUT!”. I think she’ll be an awesome big sister. She’s been telling me how she”ll help “Tuck” him in, “cuddle” with him, “uug him” and “elp Lawdon NEEEW dipa” – which means, she’ll help get Sheldon new diapers. She’s excited to race her cars with him and wrap him up in blankets to keep him warm. We’ve also told Coranelle that when Sheldon comes, he is going to give her a green bike. (We’ve heard that a gift from the arriving sibling can help the adjustment). She is so excited about the bike, she asks me about it daily. “Lawdon- greeeeen bike. Daddy elp ride”. She knows what the bikes look like because she and Ryan have watched Utube videos of young toddlers learning to use their Strider bikes for the first time. And of course, the bike HAS to be green, because, well, it wouldn’t be Coranelle’s if it wasn’t. Ryan asks me every day when he can order the bike for her. He’s just like a little kid! Coranelle points out bikes and helmets everywhere and in any book she spots them in. It will be so fun to watch and help teach her to ride a bike.

Ryan wanted me to have some time and opportunities to focus on Sheldon, rather than always Coranelle. So, he and the moms are working on organizing a little baby “sprinkle” for me and I am excited to celebrate with some other moms and girlfriends. Also in the works is a cleaning day for the Mork household. When I say cleaning, I mean a huge, scrubbing, all-out deep clean. See, Ryan’s aunt loves to clean and is awesome at it. She has an eye for what needs to be done and how to do it. So, she, Ryan’s uncle, Ryan’s parents and my mom have all graciously volunteered to come make our house spotless for the arrival of a baby. I am SO excited. See, I clean. I really do. I clean bathrooms, and sweet and mop almost daily. I sanitize counters, vacuum, do laundry, all that. But, I don’t get around to the big stuff- like cleaning the oven, or behind the fridge and washer and dryer. I rarely think to dust. But, when the cleaners come, all this will get done, plus carpet cleaning and I’ve heard, even the outlets are cleaned out with toothpicks and Q’tips. How awesome is that?! My nesting will be done for me (at least the part that involves heavy lifting and stuff I don’t particularly love to do). How spoiled are we?!

Coranelle has also had multiple sleepovers with both sets of grandparents recently. She has a total blast and it is a great break for us. Having done this pretty often is making me feel pretty relaxed about being away from her for a few nights/days while in the hospital. I think it’s been great to have some trial runs and see how well she does. It will help me focus on Sheldon and worry less about how Coranelle is doing.

So that’s the update on baby #2. We’re getting anxious to meet him.

I hope you are all doing well!

Below are the predictions for Sheldon's birthday and birth weight. We'll see who gets the closest. If you want to add your thoughts, leave a comment and I'll keep a running list. Anyone think I'll deliver in March? Or have an 8lb baby? Or deliver 2 weeks late?

Derrick- 4/10 7lb 4oz

Kari- 4/12 7lb 3oz, 4:30pm

Josh- 4/12 6lb 8oz, 10am

Lesley- 6lb 12oz

Lauren- 4/13 7lb 4oz

Claire- 4/13 6lb 9oz

Ryan- 4/14 7lb

Bruce- 4/14 6lb 14oz, 4:30pm

Adele- 4/15 7lb 13oz

Grandma Marcia- 4/15 7lb 2oz

Heido- 4/15 7lb 4oz

Going private- please send me a note if you want to continue reading

So, I am working on making my blog private. I have been considering it for some time now and think it would be the right decision for the protection of my family and my writing. One of my other blogging friends recently walked me through how to check the stats on who visits my blog. Although I cannot see exactly who sees it, it is very clear that there are far more readers than I imagined- reading from countries far and wide. At first, I wasn’t too alarmed at the wide spread of countries from which my readers came from. After all, I studied abroad after high school and met students and friends from almost 80 different countries and have befriended many over time on facebook. Regardless, I kept checking the stats and discovered there were readers from places that I am positive I have never met the readers. That makes me uncomfortable when I am pouring my heart out as well as proudly displaying pictures of my very adorable and innocent daughter.

On top of the security/safety issue, I have decided I don’t really want my blog to be a site for people to visit when they are bored and have nothing better to do. That sounds really harsh, but I get the impression that acquaintances are reading my blog whom hardly know me at all. And, while that seems harmless, if you don’t know my heart, my family, or me I think my thoughts, feelings, ventings, and intentions can be easily misread or misinterpreted. I have gotten wind of these misinterpretations lately and I half considered quitting my blog altogether. But, I decided against it.

Let me explain: when I fist became pregnant, I started reading my friend Heidi’s blog and I learned all about her son and baby on the way. I loved and still love to read about her journey through motherhood and the joy and challenges that life brings her way. I love her honesty and transparency. She writes beautifully about what she is laughing and crying over and what she is learning. When I started my own blog, I vowed to emulate her blogging style. I wanted to be open and honest, as it is a trait that I very much appreciate in my friends and family. Too often in life, we come across people that pretend like everything is always sunny, happy and perfect- people who rarely admit that they are struggling with their self image, their marriage, their job, their relationships, their children or their faith. I, personally, have been put off by these kinds of people in the past and would prefer to be real. I figure that if I am real and admit my struggles and my own personal flaws, the people around me will also feel that they are allowed to be real. They don’t have to pretend that every day of their pregnancy is comfortable, fun and smiles. My hope is that they don’t have to pretend to be strong when they really need a place to break down or vent.

I suppose over time, my “mission statement” for my blog has become to create a place that other parents, new moms, expectant parents, etc can visit to feel some camaraderie in this huge aspect of our lives. I want them to read about things that they can empathize with, and feel like they are not alone in their experiences, expectations or feelings- whether those feelings are of utter joy or pure frustration and heartbreak. I have heard from other moms that it has been helpful to read posts about what my pregnancy, delivery, and the first months of Coranelle’s life were like. I hope that my blog continues to be helpful or insightful in that way. (That is certainly not to say that, if you aren’t a parent, you aren’t welcome to read my blog. It is just a warning that most of my posts will be related to being a parent or a stay-at-home mom.) It is also a place for me to vent, as I always gain some perspective as I am writing. It is a place for me to share my own struggles, our joys, my worries, concerns, hopes, fears and dreams. It is a place that I will often call out for advice to other mothers or friends. I don’t want to change that. I don’t want to make my blog purely a place for me to talk about what we did over the weekend, or how much my kids weigh. I have other outlets for that kind of information.

Too often recently, I have felt misunderstood on my blog. I have heard from others around me that- acquaintances read my blog and worry about how I am doing or didn’t like something I said. But, I want my blog to be a place that people can come to and if they have those worries or have been offended, they can contact me directly, or leave a comment. It feels too impersonal right now- like too many people have windows into my soul and are making their own judgments about who I am as a wife, mother and person.

For those people who really know me and spend time with us, I think they understand that I am often simply “venting” on my blog about a particular experience or stage that we are going through. They don’t question my sanity nor my tenacious and fierce love and adoration for my daughter and family. They understand that I am not probably going to make random posts about my day to day shopping trip with my daughter. Something has to motivate me to write- whether that be a celebration, something that Coranelle did that was super funny, cute or made me proud, or something that has made me cry, or something I am learning. Does that make sense?

That being said, if you would like to continue reading my blog and seeing pictures of Coranelle (and soon- Sheldon)- please send me your e-mail address. You can write me with your address at karialyssam@gmail.com . You will receive an invitation from Google, or my blog that requests that you sign in and accept the invite (I am not quite sure yet exactly how it works). But, if you don’t send me your e-mail address, within the next month or so, you will no longer have access to the blog.

"Real is something we become gradually, as we face life vulnerably, returning to God over and over and finding ourselves loved, even when life hurts, when it does not make sense, when we are angry and afraid."- Brenda Waggoner

Thanks for reading that long explanation. I hope you are all doing really well.

And now, for a little celebration- Today at gymnastics, Coranelle was bold enough to hang onto a ring 7 feet off the ground ( by herself) and swing out over the foam pit. (It’s kind of like a zipline). Not many of the kids will attempt it, or aren’t quite strong enough to hold on alone, but after watching a few kids do it for the last 4 classes, she jumped in and did it. It scared her to death to fall into the pit, but she bounced back quickly and also impressed my by venturing through the tunnels in the obstacle course for the first time ever. It’s so amazing to see her growing up so quickly!

So happy playing with her matchbox cars!

a few good lessons from big bro

After a fun time swimming, wearing her new outfit from Adele.

So, I talked to my big brother today. He told me that sometimes they (he and his wife) read my blog and worry that I'm losing it. So, just to reassure you all, I'm not losing it. We have had some rough periods, but we really are doing well and are happy.

Here's what I learned from my phone conversation with my bro-
1.
I NEED to ask for help more. I must admit, I have such a hard time with this. I feel like my job is to stay home and care for Coranelle, so I have a hard time admitting that I cannot do it on my own at times. But, I have so many people who are willing and ready to help out. I am really so lucky to have so many great people around us. I apologize to the MANY of you who have offered to watch Coranelle or help out and I haven't taken you up on it. I'm am going to really work on this.

2.
I am too much of a control freak. Really, I am. My whole life, I have had a plan. Really, every day I have a plan and a schedule and expectations. For most of my life, things have gone as planned and I have felt relatively, in control. But, Coranelle- well, I cannot control her. Every day, there's something new and unexpected. Things often don't go as planned. And, as Stefan pointed out, it is really good for me. It is my life lesson in learning how to be more flexible, and have less plans and expectations. It is teaching me to enjoy the good moments and treasure the fun times. I need to let it teach me how to lean on other people more and let go. I need to stop leaving my daughter with people and giving detailed instructions about which color spoon she likes to eat with, which socks she wears to bed, what snack she eats after a nap, etc. etc. I am going to work on allowing days to go by without such a schedule and a plan. I am writing all of this down to help me be accountable- but it is hard to change.

Thanks to my mom and brother for helping me realize these things. Thanks to all of you who are always there for us and willing to help.

Now, on a much lighter note... we got Sheldon's new crib delivered today- a gift from Heido and Poppa Bruce. Once it is assembled, I will take and post pictures of his room- which is looking really, really cute!

Second, the picture above is of me at 30 weeks. 10 weeks until we meet the little guy!

Lastly, Coranelle did better at the rec center childcare yesterday. She still wanted to be up for about half the time, but she did better. We are working on ways to let her "see" what I am doing while I am cooking, without me having to hold her. Keep her in her prayers as she prepares for her little brother's arrival. Keep me in your prayers- that I can stay strong when I make her terribly sad by refusing to hold her.

a rough patch

I'm currently up in our bedroom with my old college desk lamp on, listening to KBCO and drinking peppermint tea. I have 20 minutes to myself, thanks to my amazing husband. It's the little things, really. I cannot believe how much I took these moments for granted before having a kid. When I post this blog and head out of my little haven to bathe my daughter, I will feel totally refreshed- unlike my previous state of mind which included my comment, "I resign". Don't worry, I wasn't resigning from motherhood, or life- just caring if my daughter ate a decent dinner or drank any of her milk. It was a battle I didn't have the energy for tonight.

I came home from the rec center this afternoon choking back tears and then after hugs from Ryan, let the waterworks flow. My hormones are probably in overdrive as I enter the 8th month of my pregnancy, but I still have had many moments of feeling very broken recently. Let me explain today's break down. It was super frigid today- sub zero temps. But, that didn't stop us from having a good day. We went to the library, checked out and read books, played computer games where Coranelle created all sorts of crazy green monsters and then headed over to gymnastics. Coranelle loves gymnastics and it is so fun to see her stretch, run, explore, balance and work on new motor skills. This afternoon, we returned to the rec center so that Coranelle could go to childcare and I could work out. Recently, the child care workers have been telling me that she is very clingy and wants to be held the whole time. This obviously doesn't work when there are 20 kids in the room, some infants, and just a few adults. After MOPs last week, I got a similar report. Coranelle was crying and sad unless one of the workers was holding her. She isn't playing, just wanting to be up. When the workers hold the babies, she gets mad at them. So, she and I have had many discussions about this. I told her today that she couldn't be up the whole time. She needed to play with all the fun toys and kids. I returned an hour later to a tear streaked face, a pouty and quivering lip, and two frustrated childcare workers. She, again, wanted to be up the whole time. One lady explained that she tried to get her to color and play, but nothing worked. The other lady explained that she made Coranelle stay down for a while, not to be mean, but because if I take her at more busy times, there is NO way she can be held the whole time. Of course! I know this. Meanwhile, Coranelle is clinging to me, listening to every word, and just looking pitifully sad. I explained to the workers that I think Coranelle is very aware that there is a baby coming into our lives and this is her way of preparing/adjusting. She is already afraid baby Sheldon is going to be in her Mommy's arms more than she will and she hates it.

So, we left the childcare room and went out and sat on a bench to have a chat and put our coats on. Tears started streaming down my face as I wondered what I am supposed to do. Why is she SO clingy? There were 15 other kids in there, some younger, some older, none of them paying any mind to the adults or needing to be held. What is going on? Coranelle looks up at me with her sad eyes and says, "Mommy Sad". And she reaches up and hugs and kisses me and says, "wipe" as she wipes my tears off. I tried to explain to her why I was sad and she understood. She just kept saying "hugs" and trying to make me feel better. What is this stage? What am I supposed to do? Not only do I know she shouldn't be held all the time, it is hurting me now that I have a huge belly. We have bad battles at night about this while I am cooking and I have had to put her up in her room and let her cry and be sad while I finish making a meal. It makes me terribly sad because... she's not trying to be bad or hard. She just wants to see what I am doing.

A few nights ago, I broke down in tears with Ryan again. People keep telling me that God won't give me more than I can handle. But, sometimes- I feel like he has. If it weren't for my amazing husband and awesome parents, I am not sure how I'd cope. But, I have another one on the way... soon! And let me make this clear... I love my daughter so much it hurts. She's amazing and smart and fun and adorable. But, when I think about the last 20 months, these are the things we have come through:
-colic for 6 months- that means periods of 2-8 hours of intense crying that we couldn't easily soothe- every day.
-No napping for the first 3 months of her life unless I was wearing her and moving. (That's how I lost my pregnancy weight).
-She wouldn't take a bottle so I was the only one who could feed her for 10 months.
- intense hatred of the stroller or sitting- ever
-Nursing strike and biting leading to an unwanted ending to nursing at 10 months.
-Total and continued refusal to drink milk of any kind- formula, soy, cow, coconut, almond, etc.
-Constant eating battles and worry about her being underweight.
-Intense stranger anxiety from 5-9 months old which meant that most of the time, she could only be with me or dad. Leaving her with grandparents meant she cried for much of the time.
-Pulling out chunks of her hair and for a time, eating it. That led to us cutting her hair twice.
-currently- hitting and being aggressive with other kids at times

Whew... I feel like it has just been a lot of battles. But, when I voice that, I feel even more guilty. I don't want it to come across that I dislike being a mom, or that I don't appreciate staying home with my daughter. I cannot imagine not being with her. She's addicting and amazing, even when she is so encompassing and spirited. It's just hard to see so many other relatively easy babies growing up around me and not wonder what we have done wrong.

Yet, our talk at MOPs on Tuesday was about laughing more, and taking time to linger. I realized that I have been wishing away this precious time and these precious stages of Coranelle's life. I keep thinking that it will get easier as she gets older and cannot help but look forward to when she starts pre-school and school. How terrible is that? It is making me miss out on THIS time in her life and all these amazing moments and memories that we have on a daily basis. In reality, it is going by SO fast and I know that when she does start Kindergarten, I will be sad and missing all the time that I got to spend with her when she was younger. So, I am working on shifting my focus and soaking in the good times and all of the great traits that my daughter has.

For example, she is the happiest and cutest little thing in the world when you take her swimming. Her whole face lights up as she goes down the slides and begs to go more and more.

She is amazing with all of her colors and loves to name them on everything. I love that she loves green and always insists on wearing something green- even if it is just a barrette.

She in incredibly intuitive and kind and loves to give out hugs and kisses.

She is a blast at the zoo- searching for the Rhino and talking to the fish and the turtles.

I love coloring and reading with her. She is so engaged and talkative.

She loves racing her cars with Ryan and it is so fun to watch them laying down on their tummies, lining up the cars and cheering.

She's adorable when she sings and dances.

She likes to hug my belly and give baby Sheldon kisses.

I could go on and on about the things she does daily that make me smile. She has really taught me so much about love, life, patience, and joy. I am going to work harder on looking towards the positives and soak up the good moments. And, we'll keep working on fostering her independence so that she doesn't need to be "up" all the time. Okay, my time is up. Venting done and feeling much more positive and relaxed.
Being Sassy.
Talking to the turtle.

A little scare and someone watching

Feeling like I am gaining weight fast! But, I learned the hard way this morning how important it is to listen to your body and not worry about what the scale is saying!

Here are a few pictures pre- sickness and mini crisis.

How is it only Monday afternoon? Whew! Things seem to be a bit out of the ordinary here and it's taking its toll on me. On Saturday, Coranelle came down with a bad cough. It was actually the worse cough I've ever heard her have, and it was alarming. She sounded like a barking seal and we were scared she came down with croup. The crazy thing about Coranelle when she is sick is that it doesn't really slow her down, she just becomes harder to care for. She cries at the drop of a hat and is more stubborn than ever. She wouldn't eat or drink for us this weekend- at all. Really, nothing worked. I tried all her favorites, plus fun smoothies and Dora shaped Chicken noodle soup. But, she rejected everything. And, how do you get better when you aren't drinking or eating. Yikes! So, I called Children's hospital yesterday and found out she didn't have the symptoms of croup, just a bad cold. She has a fever of about 99 and her cough sounds less barking now, and she is breathing okay. But, she's not sleeping great, which means I am worn out and tired of fighting the food battle. I'd like to rest while she is, but she's not sleeping for long. Last night, she proceeded to knock a whole bowl of soup off the table and all over herself and our cloth dining room chair. This morning, she squished orange into the floor and then choked on her own mucus and threw up on me.
So, needless to say, I was preoccupied this morning trying to get her to eat and drink. Ryan's parents were coming over to watch her so that I could enjoy a class at the rec center and go get my third trimester glucose test done without having Coranelle. I am SO glad that they were here this morning and that I didn't bring her with me. So, here's how the morning went after I left her with Grams and PopPops. I got to the rec center to find that everyone else wanted to be there since most people had the day off. So, my step class was super crowded and HOT. I felt fine while doing Step, and then changed into my normal clothes and drank my 10 ounces of orange liquid syrup before my appointment. Part of the procedure requires that you do not eat anything after drinking the liquid. So, I skipped my typical mid-morning snack. I left and talked to my mom and Ryan on the way into the office.

See, I have this friend who had a really traumatic experience with her third trimester glucose test. She had left her older son behind and headed into the doctor to do her test. Something about the combination of the warm car and not having the usual chatting toddler in the car with her allowed her to fall asleep at the wheel and she drove head-on into an oncoming truck. She broke two major bones in her leg and had a really difficult recovery. Thank the Lord she was okay, and so was her baby. To read her whole, incredible story in her own words, see this post http://nothingbutbluesky.blogspot.com/2009_03_01_archive.html
and read starting Friday March 20, 2009. It's an amazing story, but incredibly scary and her words are far better than mine in describing the whole experience. Anyhow, I couldn't help but thinking about her this morning as I was planning to have this test done.

So, I decided to talk to someone on the phone on the way into the hospital for the test. Like my friend, I knew I wouldn't have Coranelle chatting in the back seat and demanding snacks. So, I felt fine as I listened to my mom talk about my little sister's future plans. I went in and checked in at the Lab and they told me they had to wait another 15 minutes before they could take my blood. So, as I was sitting there waiting, I started to feel really hot and dizzy. I really wanted to drink some water or eat something, but you have to wait until after they draw your blood. I put my head between my legs for a bit and started fanning myself. I decided I felt like I might pass out and I was wondering if I would do it while they were drawing blood. I looked up and told the nurse that I was feeling dizzy. She told me to walk with her and she'd find a place for me to lay down. Next thing I knew, I was on a tile floor with three nurses surrounding me in a state of panic. I was really disoriented and felt as if I had dreamed while I was out. I looked up and asked if I had passed out and they all told me that I had. They helped me up into the chair offered me water and juice, but I asked them to draw the blood first. I didn't want to repeat this whole process again. One of the ladies had apparently caught me so I didn't hit the floor or a wall. Thank goodness for her. They told me I had been out cold for about a minute and that had never happened to a patient before someone stuck a needle in their arm. All I could think of was that I was really lucky. This hadn't happened while I was driving, but in the safety of a hospital. Thank the Lord for that. Also, I didn't have Coranelle with me so I didn't drop her when I passed out and she didn't have to be freaked out when her mommy passed out. Yay for grandparents coming out to babysit.

So, once my blood was taken, the nurses called over to my doctor's office (which is in the same building now). My doctor wasn't too worried but said that I could come up for a quick check up if I wanted. I felt okay, and if it was just me, I probably would have just gotten something to eat and gone home. But, passing out with a baby inside is a bit more scary and I thought I would feel better if I got to listen to Sheldon's heartbeat and be reassured that he was okay. So, I went upstairs to my doctor's office. My doctor came out and told me that she wanted me to go get something to eat before she saw me. So, I went down and bought a chef's salad and made a few phone calls. Then, I went back up and had to give a urine sample and have my blood pressure taken. Thankfully, everything was normal and while I waited to see my doctor, I felt Sheldon start to move again. That made me smile and I was glad that the ordeal was almost over. My doctor found a strong heartbeat and wasn't too concerned. She told me that it was a combination of the glucose, not eating anything and exercising. She said it sometimes happens and as long as I wasn't feeling short of breath or chest pressure, everything should be okay. She cleared me to go home.
So, I got home and talked to Ryan's parents for a bit. I just feel like God was protecting us today and I am so thankful that it was just a little scare without serious consequences. I know I have to be sure to not skip my snacks or skimp on breakfast if I want to stay conscious. Things could have been a lot worse today.
Now, I just have to figure out what to feed a sick kiddo. And, when to rest since she slept all of 45 minutes before I got home from the doctor and doesn't seem to be going back down.

Ta da!

So, as promised, I am announcing the name that we have decided on for our son. We reserve the right to change our minds up until or after the little guy arrives, but I doubt that will happen.

Can I just say, picking a boy's name is HARD! And when your daughter's name is Coranelle (which has no actual meaning because the name doesn't really exist except for within the family), picking a name is even harder. How can you have a daughter named Coranelle and a son with a really simple name like Sam, Mike, Bob or Joe? There is nothing wrong with those names, but it doesn't seem to fit with Coranelle. So, we thought about choosing another family name, but then didn't like the names Archibald, Harry, Howard, Edward, or Holger found in the family tree.

So, we looked at our name book over and over and over. And we had a hard time agreeing. Really hard. Let's see- I liked Sawyer (Ryan thought of Lost), I liked Ezekial (Zeke for short), but Ryan wasn't crazy about that. I liked Jonah, Tobias and Sullivan. After contemplating each of these, Ryan wasn't thrilled about any of them.I decided I liked names that started with the letter "S" but couldn't really find anything we both loved.

We had a name picked out for a boy before we knew Coranelle was going to be a girl. We were going to name him Ezra Oliver. Over time, both of us lost our passion for the name Ezra. And Ryan's cousin named her baby boy Oliver, and we didn't want to steal that one. Then I decided (with my Spanish background) that any boy name that ended in an "a" seemed feminine to me. So, that knocked out a few more.

Further, we don't want a really common name. I don't want to have 6 kids in my classes in the future that share the name of my son. Whew! This was getting to be difficult.

Let me warn you, the choosing of our son's name is not really sentimental or spiritual, so don't judge us. One night we were watching the Big Bang Theory. We don't really watch much TV at night. I like watching Parenthood on Tuesdays and that's the only show I would be sad to miss. We often watch the Office on Thursdays because Josh and Claire come over to watch it with us after working out at the gym. But, we sort of stumbled across Big Bang Theory and thought it was amusing. So, we bought the first few seasons on DVD and were going through them. After watching a rather amusing episode, Ryan asked me... "How about Sheldon?" At first, I just kinda laughed because there is a Sheldon on the show and he is the most quirky, nerdy, eccentric, strange genius that could ever have been thought up. He has his PhD in Physics and an IQ of 1000 or something. But, upon hearing the name more, and thinking about it, we both liked the name- a lot! Now, to be clear we are not naming our son after this character in the silly show, that's just what brought the name to our attention. And it doesn't hurt that every time we watch an episode, Sheldon makes me laugh and smile... and there cannot be anything bad about that!

So, Sheldon it is. And we are passing on Ryan's middle name to our son to add a little sentiment to it- also we really like Ryan's middle name. It had a perfect number of syllables, a nice sound and a perfect meaning. So, there it is- Sheldon Christopher Mork. Pretty great, huh? Actually, I don't really need your approval- we think it's pretty great. When Coranelle talks about Baby Sheldon, she calls him Shla-la. I think she'll get it soon, but for now it's cute!

Before we first bounced the name across a few people to see their reaction, Ryan's dad told us that the name should have a good meaning. This is humorous because I think Sheldon means "Steep hill" or "town in a valley". Neither of those meanings has a whole lot of value to us, but we still really like the name. And a name that has made me smile and laugh and look at life a little more light-heartedly during my pregnancy has a good value to me. So there you go... Look forward to meeting little Sheldon Christopher Mork in about 3 months. We're excited!


PS- Now that you know his name- weigh in and let me know your guesses on when the little guy will be born and how much he'll weigh. He is due April 14th. His "big" sister was born on her due date and weighed a whopping 6 pounds 6 ounces. I have thoughts from Ryan, Josh, Claire, Bruce and Heido and will post them all as well as whatever anyone else guesses. We'll see who gets closest!